Asia, School of Tantra of the Heart, Formation of Psychodynamics of Relations and Body Communication, 4th meeting, 2024

The fourth meeting of the formation is another step that gave me the opportunity to get to know myself better. From today on, I do not go for pleasure only, for what I know, for what I like. I experience. I go into my bones, into my soul. I get to know what is true, what is unpleasant. I transform. I am in constant change. I am the pulse of my heart. I discover my inner wisdom, I build its foundations, walls and roof. Thanks to it I have STRENGTH, thanks to it I see what I did not see before, thanks to it I support the world and give it energy for a new creation. To the path to truth, to unity.

The 4th meeting was a strong, life meeting with myself. I entered my subconscious actions, my patterns. I could see something that I am ashamed of, that I do not admit to, that I drown out. I discovered that I am overzealous (I take up someone’s space), perfect (it is difficult for me to admit my mistakes, I look for them outside), fierce (I do not let go), smart (I do not admit that I do not know or do not understand something), polite (I do not pay attention to others, I eliminate my needs, and at the same time accumulate a lot of anger in my body). I am an individualist (I love doing everything my own way), a straight-A student (I compete with others to be the BEST), a manipulator (I transform reality to suit myself).

The difficult truth about myself – NO! I do not have to look for acceptance outside, I do not have to fit in. I am inside myself. In my heart. I have built my core. I know who I am and what I am capable of. I know how to use my darkness and transform it into a powerful force pushing me into the world. I want to be part of my community, part of the nature surrounding me, I want to influence their shape. By combining heart and strength, I can do anything.

During the 4th meeting I experienced that masculinity supported by the wisdom of a woman explodes with a force that no one can stop. A force that arouses admiration and pride, that flows straight from a sensitive heart. Such a man is able to give me security and care. I want to be with such a man! From now on I FULLY respect masculinity, give it space to express itself. I wisely support the actions of men and all their decisions. Because together we can do more, because together it is funnier and easier 🙂