David, School of Tantra of the Heart, Formation of Psychodynamics of Relations and Body Communication, 5th meeting, 2025

A Transmission from the Heart of Tantra

I entered the Eagle Group two years ago raw, ruptured, and burning with confusion.  I had handed over my power, abandoned my own center, and searched for love like a starving man — grasping outside myself, in women, in fantasy, in validation. I was a father without presence, a partner without truth, a man without foundation.

But that’s not who I am anymore.

The School of Tantra of the Heart cracked me open. What I once clung to as trauma revealed itself as wisdom — buried alive, waiting to be honored. Each workshop didn’t just teach me something new — it dismantled what no longer served. It peeled away the false layers, one breath, one ritual, one confrontation at a time.

This was no bypass. This was not spiritual window – dressing. It was gritty, visceral, real. It was breathwork that split my chest open. Movement that revealed where I still hid. Eye gazes that stripped away my masks. Laughter that healed parts I thought were unredeemable. And yes — tears, rage, grief, pleasure, and stillness that rewired my nervous system from the inside out.

There was joy. There was wild, uncontained aliveness. There was love — not romantic projection, but real, grounded, soul-to-soul contact. And there was shadow. Deep, honest confrontation with the parts of me I had disowned. And the deeper I dropped into the darkness, the more light I discovered there.

Through this path, I shattered the illusion that life was happening to me. I took full responsibility for everything — every rupture, every conflict, every act of avoidance. I stopped playing the victim. I stopped running. I turned toward my life, finally.

Now, I live connected — to my breath, to my body, to Source. I walk slower. I feel more. I track the energy beneath the surface. My intuition speaks, and I listen. My body guides me. My spirit animates me. Presence is no longer something I strive for. It is who I am becoming.

This school did not give me a new identity — it stripped away what was never me to begin with. It burned away the persona. It revealed the essence.

Tantra taught me how to stop outsourcing power. To stop waiting to be chosen. To stop apologizing for my longing, my truth, my depth. It taught me to stand as a man rooted in love and lit by fire.

It’s not about sex. It’s not about fantasy.

It’s about wholeness. Embodiment. Radical honesty.

It’s about learning to hold the full spectrum of human experience — and staying in your body as it all moves through.

In Service to the World

This transformation is not just for me.

I carry it now for others. For the fathers who feel lost. For the men stuck in cycles of shame and silence. For the children who need to feel their fathers fully present. For the women waiting for men to rise — not with domination, but with depth, devotion, and truth.

I no longer heal just for myself. I heal so I can hold space. I rise so I can lift others. I return to integrity, again and again, so I can be trustworthy in the circles I lead, the relationships I tend, and the world I touch.

My life is now an offering.

An offering of embodiment.

Of awakened masculinity.

Of fierce compassion.

I am here to serve love. To model presence. To remind others that freedom is possible — not in theory, but in the blood and breath of real life. I’m not perfect, but I am committed. Committed to being a man who stands for something greater than himself.

This work gave me back to myself — so I could give myself to the world.

I share this not to impress , but to tell you the truth:

There are doors inside you that you don’t even know exist.

And behind them are parts of you waiting to be reclaimed.

So if you feel the pull — if something inside you is tired of pretending, exhausted by running, and ready to live wide open — step into this work.

Not because you’re broken.

But because you’re ready to stop living halfway.

Because your soul is hungry for truth.

I am no longer waiting to be chosen.

I choose me.

I choose presence.

I choose to live from the deepest place within me — and offer that to the world.

And I invite you

Let it burn what is false.

Let it reveal what is real.

Let it bring you home.